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LRM Oct 19 2012
Just had some friend of my neighbors call me a "white whore"/"white bitch". Twice. Just for asking him to move out of my parking space. Just because he said it in Spanish DOES NOT mean it means or is meant any LESS than if it was in English. He was a bit taken aback that I understood him (thanks, Caj for teaching Mommy useful stuff). Why can they get away with that shit and if I had said something clearly racist and derogatory to him in plain English I'd have a mob after me and be called a racist and a bigot.
 As soon as I said "Are you drunk? Driving around with your kids?!" he loaded up and left before I had even unloaded my groceries (I'm making tacos, of all things). I was going to go out and get his plate number.
T, that is the naked, bitter truth of it. If any other race does it, well, us white devils deserve it because of what our "history" is (weird, because I'm not Spanish and Columbus did a hell of a lot of damage) and we should just let people vent and get it out of their system, etc. The second we dare to get offended we are reminded of how evil and controlling we are and how we and our "white guilt" deserves and needs to just take it and shut up. I'm bloody fucking sick of it.
A few years ago a girl with a Puerto Rican BF lived in the same apt and he tore into my then 16 year old daughter and her BF for being "loud" on the stairs (they weren't. I was out there with them saying goodbye) he started right off the bat with the racist comments and name calling to both of them, and when I came back outside, me also. It was shocking to us, we had no clue why someone would just "go there" right out of the gate. Come to find out he was on drugs and had a warrant and was always talking about how the "white cops were targeting him" (I know white people who've been arrested more than him, they cops usually target criminals...hmmm...maybe there's a connection...)
I've had enough of it, actually. I couldn't get away with any of this shit.
This same neighbors GF (who just moved out) ALSO had her little racist episodes babbling in spanish at us for shit that THEY were doing wrong.
Dudes, I just want to live my pathetic little life here, UNDISTURBED and NO, I DON'T wnant to be friends with any of my neighbors, I don't give a FUCK what color, religion or variation you are, just leave me the fuck alone, follow the rules, and I'll leave you the fuck alone and do my own thing.
  I don't buy the whole "You stole our land from us" shit either. I did not. I was born in Kansas in 1968. I will not and do not have to be a simpering, apologetic doormat for just being born here, being born white and being born in this time. I can't fucking control that. I ended up in Utah because my dad was stationed at Hill AFB and retired here when I was still in a single digit age. Again, I haven't done anything to anyone but go where I was brought with my family. I haven't killed anyone, stolen anyone's life, land, person, livestock, vehicles, children, etc. I don't need to apologize for being a legal, natural born American Caucasian. I was born when that was not a crime. It just happened that way. I could have easily been born in Canada, Mexico, Africa, Russia...but I wasn't. And that's not a "fault' or an "entitlement" it just *IS*.
 I had to sit in a waiting room with a guy who has BROWN PRIDE tattooed on his forearms, no one paid him any mind. No one gave a shit or seemed to, but I can tell you WITHOUT A DOUBT what would be going on if another guy or even me was sitting there with WHITE PRIDE tattooed in the same VERY OBVIOUS place.
This World and Humans are completely pathetic and hopeless. I have not one ounce of faith left in them/us. We can't even get past being born different shades because of the region our ancestors were from (evolutionary traits) not to mention religion (nothing more divisive and hateful on the planet) and moving past horrible shit we've done to each other in the past (usually because of the religion/looking different thing). Imagine this; This is all of ours' planet. OUR WORLD. Who gives a fuck who decided to go live where as long as everyone is mindful of others. But like a bunch of dogs, we roam around stealing scraps and turf from each other.
Hopeless.
 When the ship is damaged and sinking, just because you can still find a couple of doors to shut and one motor that works does not mean this ship will stop sinking.
 

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