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I was raised generic Protestant. My Mom is Church of England my dad was raised LDS but distanced himself from it long B4 I came along. I do not know why exactly. I never knew any of his views on religion, God, etc. I grew up here in LDS Zion. Never felt the need to join (don’t believe it). I was always (from age 4 is the youngest memory) had an interest in the occult, supernatural, etc. At 20 I converted to Catholicism. I studied Demonology and also became involved with a pentecostal/evangelical break-off born again christian group(s), I essentially wanted to learn about religion. Something was still missing/not ‘clicking’ with me, there’s more out there. I started studying VouDou and Witchcraft (started w/ ‘Wicca’ and decided it was too adulterated) and reading/learning what I could about the older religions, tribal religions etc. Something seems familiar with them but I’m still searching.
As for Speaking in Tongues; soon after I began doing it, there was a debate with our church members about if it HAD to have an interpretation to be valid, the consensus was that if it was spoken out in the middle of a sermon, congregation, it needed interpretation, if one felt the need to do it while say, scared or upset or even just praying, then it was simply this; a language ‘God’ gave you to speak directly to Him (or the Angels) in prayer and the reason you cannot understand it is so your heart/mind/spirit will focus in (something like that) and no external chatter, stuff going on in your head, gets in the way and ‘interrupts’ the prayer. I guess it’s like chanting then, or saying the Rosary, it focuses you.
I still am unsure what it really is…I can still do it, it wasn’t taken away, so there must be a reason. Maybe it’s something ancient? I don’t think it’s as simple as I used to think it was.

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